spent all afternoon in his bed,
under the sheets,
over the sheets,
maybe on the desk,
probably the kitchen table.
and I think even on the floor
at one point.
kisses are the best when your lips are left sore and you feel as though it could never be enough.
sex is the best when it’s spontaneous and unexpected.
I hate the way she makes you. You’re boring when you’re with her. You’ve lost all your color, all your depth, all your soul.
And I fucking need you back.
I need you to feel something. let me in, goddammit. you’re pushing me away again. and right now, I need you the most.
I’m heartless and cruel and vindictive.
but god do I hate her.
and I hate you.
I hate me.
maybe I was going to let him go.
maybe I was finally ready to let you in.
or maybe it’s all one big goddamn cosmic joke.
a lot like
melting my wax figure
into the ground
my love for you, in a list
pure - lustful - passionate - true - painful - joyous - adoring - hot - burning - insane - patient - amazing - beautiful - everlasting - bright - enduring - unwavering - blissful - astonishing - shameless - aching - intense - right - tender - romantic - eager - strong - stunning - scary - giddy - rich - daunting - consuming - ecstasy - freeing - boundless - delicious - divine - honest - illogical - sensual - devoted - enveloping - stirring - cherishing - deep - challenging - surprising - raw